A couple of friends have said they were worried that I haven’t blogged for so long…. so here I am. There are a couple of reasons why I haven’t blogged for a while, the first being, I have been working so many hours and a lot of them out of the office so by the time I get home the last thing I want to do is turn on my computer and the second reason is that I am sick of being flat and writing sad things about how low I am feeling. I just want to be normal Cindy again…. where has she gone!! Friends, who we were very close to until Luke died, just had a baby boy which is another kick in the guts for me too. Are there no girl babies anymore? Far out it is just like everyone else gets a boy but sucked in Drew & Cindy, you get to carry your boy for 42 weeks and give birth to him, but you don’t get to keep him and now you have to be around and face everyone else enjoying theirs. It’s not that I am unhappy for our friends, it’s just not fair for us, never will be. The other day at the cemetery I just stared at his plaque and then said “Ok, I’ve had enough of you being here now, it’s time you come home with me.” If only! This grieving your little child is so cruel and no matter what people say – it doesn’t get easier! I feel like it is getting harder some days. I just miss our little boy so much.
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Cindy am sending you hugs abd hope your doing ok.–>