Archive for December, 2007

Merry Christmas…

Christmas was lovely this year except for the obvious missing piece of our family puzzle.  We stayed home all day and my parents came up on Christmas Eve for 2 nights and DH’s mum came our early for the day.  We had a yummy breakfast cooked on the BBQ by DH , then the present opening and then the traditional Christmas Lunch (except for the Turkey we all decided to forfeit) followed by a lazy afternoon trying to digest all of the food.  Josh was so spoiled and knew nothing about it all but was loving all the attention and cuddles from everyone followed by the evening bath in the big bath with Daddy for the first time (so cute seeing them in the bath together).  Of course our mind always wandered back to our special angel Luke, he, we and now little brother Josh have missed out on so much with him and that will never be fair.  The should’ve beens always lingering around in the back of your brain.  I hope you all had a wonderful day filled with love, laughter and memories of those special family and friends that are no longer with us.  On a brighter note I wanted to share with you the photo of Josh in his Christmas outfit.  The hat didn’t stay as it was way to big for him.  Happy New Year to you all xxx



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I had a few spare minutes to finally catch up on everyone elses’ blogs, emails and to write a quick post.  We are all still going great.  We have had a couple of grizzly days which is a challenge and you just wish they could say, mum i’m hot, or mum i’ve got a tummy pain and it is so hard to know what to do so i just mentally crossed everything off and then just comforted him through it all.  Josh is so adorable and we love him so much.  I will again try to upload another recent photo.


It is still a very bittersweet time for us though as with the enjoyment comes the reminders of what we truly did miss out on with Luke.  Christmas has been avoided for the past two years and this year we decided to allow ourselves to get the tree and decoration out and enjoy our first Christmas with our new son.  We found the balls I had made when I was pregnant with Luke…. one “Drew”, one “Cindy” and one “Bubby”.  That was his nickname while in my tummy as we didn’t know what we were having and he will always be “Bubby Luke”.  While pregnant with Josh, it was just “Baby”or “Little One”.  It was hard finding these balls but I just focus on what we have been lucky enough to experience now and that we have been given the opportunity to love another child in the real world just as much as we love our special Angel.  I hope you all have a lovely Christmas and I will be especially thinking of everyone who are missing their special Angels at this time too.

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Had to share this photo…


D and I have lost the plot when it comes to taking photos… we have almost filled two albums already and Josh is only 4 weeks old.  They are wonderful memories though and for those who have lost children know just how precious every single photo is.  All is still going great and our little boy is still being so good. 

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Going great..

Life is still very rewarding and exciting at our house.  We are loving every minute with our new son and he is being the best little boy.  We have had two unsettled nights since being home but otherwise Josh feeds every 4-5hrs during the night and usually 3-4hrs during the day.  He is growing flat out and I am enjoying breastfeeding.  It is such a thrill to be feeding your own son while he is gazing back at you with his gorgeous eyes. 

We took Josh to the cemetery yesterday, we didn’t take him out of the car but D & I wanted to go and put Luke’s Christmas decorations out and I hadn’t been since Josh was born so of course there were plenty of tears.  


I will try to catch up with all of your blogs again soon and will try to attach a new photo from yesterday so you can see how much Josh has grown. 

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